Boreal Springs

January 21, 2010

Saunders – Round 28: ‘Hold Me Now’

Filed under: Saunders — Tags: , , , , — Mao @ 1:36 pm

Sage and Daisy Saunders are left to deal with the aftermath of their close friend, Jennifer Knight’s, death. (Sorry for the lack of elder Virginia portrait… I forgot!)

Sage couldn’t help but reflect on her own life in the wake of Jennifer’s death.  It had been so sudden, a complete surprise.  She had barely believed it when she heard the news, but it was true.  Jennifer was gone.  What was Sage doing with her life?  When things could be snapped up at a moment’s notice, why was she waiting around for something to happen?

She carried the thoughts with her as she walked out of her house.  She was meeting Jared for lunch.

Things with Jared were pleasantly casual, they weren’t officially attached, but they enjoyed each others company.  It had been Sage who had prompted this casual clause, intent on finding ‘Mr. Right’ before settling down.  Now, though, she found herself questioning it.  She liked Jared and she found herself spending more time with him than any of her other suitors… she just wasn’t sure if he felt the same.

“I was wondering,” she began nervously, fingers pulling at the fabric of her pants.  “I like you, a lot… and I was just curious, maybe we could be serious?  More than just… you know, casual friends with mutual interest?”

“Is this about your friend’s death?”  Jared replied without missing a beat.

Sage suddenly felt foolish and tried to busy her nervous hands with the menu, “I… well, if you don’t want to–”

“No, that’s not it at all,” Jared said, leaning on the table, watching her intently from behind tinted lenses.  “I just want to make sure this isn’t some move prompted by your realization that death is always there, behind the door, waiting to sneak up and snatch away your life.”

She sighed, “well… kind of.  I mean, not the liking you part, obviously… but I don’t want to flounder, you know?  I don’t want to have regrets.  I want to take chances.”

“I’ve been wondering how long it’d take.  I have to say, as pleased as I am… I’m sorry it had to come in the wake of Jennifer’s death.”

“Everything happens for a reason, right?” Sage said, her eyes looking past him and instead focusing on the endless blue horizon behind him.

Their lunch ended and with it, their actual relationship began.  It would be strange, turning down dates, but Sage was sure she could manage.  She’d never wanted the lifestyle of going out all the time.  She wanted a happy home, a family.  She was hoping that Jared was the right step in that direction.

“I have to tell you, though,” Sage began, her lips forming a Cheshire cat grin, “that outfit is ridiculous.”

“Hey!  This is high fashion, I’ll have you know.  It’s what all the politicians wear.”

She laughed, “I seriously doubt that.  They’d never get elected wearing that jacket!”

Dating Jared wasn’t going to be easy.  He was in politics and there were plenty of high-class ladies surrounding him at every moment.  There was also the issue of Shelly Anderson and the rumors, but having actually known Jared, she knew they were false.  They were just campaign fodder.

Sage wasn’t particularly worried.  If he had wanted to date them, he would of.  Instead, he spent the majority of his time with her or being forced into Shelly’s bidding.

When he wasn’t running errands for the ‘Queen of Evil’, he spent a lot of time at Sage’s house.  It was a good way point and much better than driving back to Aperture everyday.  Shelly was always in need of something and Jared was always on call.  It gave him an excuse to hang around Boreal Springs more often, though, so he wasn’t going to complain.

Getting to know her family was certainly interesting.  Daisy had been the most affected by Jennifer’s death, with so much left hanging in the air when she died.  She still seemed to be in shock, though, as she went on as she normally did.  It worried Virginia and Sage, who thought she at least needed to have a good cry or something.  They may not have been “dating”, but they’d been friends forever.

Instead of turning to her sister, Daisy kept her grief hidden.  She let some of it out when she talked to Emma, but mostly, she listened to Emma complain about her inability to do anything right.  That girl was a certified mess.  She’d slept with her boss and dumped Francis.  She hadn’t been close to Jennifer, but the whole ‘death’ thing had certainly shaken her up.  Daisy did her best to try and keep her friend from flying too far off course, but it was hard, as Emma seemed so intent on failing.

Daisy mourned Jennifer in her own, quiet way.  She still wasn’t sure how to feel or what to think.  It had all been so sudden.  She wasn’t sure what she felt or what she had started to feel before death had snapped Jennifer up.  Could she really have been interested in a girl?  She didn’t know, she wouldn’t ever know, not now.

She spent a lot of time at the park, late at night.  It was always quiet.  She needed quiet.

Sage, tired of her sister avoiding her, decided to go out looking for her.  When she found her quietly sitting at the park, she suddenly felt guilty.  She had thought Daisy was running off to someone else to express her sorrows to.  The two had always been terribly close and that thought had hurt her more than words could express.  However, finding her alone, in the dark, just sitting there… it made her heart ache.

She just looked so lost and confused.

“You can’t keep this bottled up forever, Daisy,” Sage said, taking a seat next to her.  “You have to let it out sometime.”

“I just don’t know what to let out,” Daisy sighed, closing her eyes.  “I don’t know what I felt, if I felt anything… she was my friend, but I don’t know, I mean… it just seems too weird, to think about it now.  Maybe we would have always just been friends.  It just sucks that she died not knowing, that I left her hanging like that.”

Sage settled her back against the wooden planks, hands resting idly on her lap, “she was your friend, Daisy.  Above all else, she was always your friend.  She told you that all the time.  She felt terrible for telling you her secret.”

“It’s just… hard… to think about, you know?  It was so quick.  It’s going to be awhile before I fully realize it–that she’s actually gone.”

“Well, whatever it takes, you don’t have to do it alone, you know that.  I’m here for you, always and forever, sis.”

“Thanks,” Daisy said softly, taking a deep breath.  “And I’m sorry.  I didn’t meant to push you away.”

“It’s all right, I understand.”

They sat in silence, staring at the quiet, dark park before them.  Every now and again, it would catch the faint light of the lighthouse off in the distance, illuminating the swings, the benches, the shallow pond with tiny fish.  They sat there for an hour or so before the cold nipped at their fingers and their nose.  When they stood up, they didn’t say a word, but they joined hands and they walked home.  Jennifer wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.

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Note from Mao: Another update, woo.  I’m so slow, I know, I apologize.  I’ve been sick and stuff has been a bit on the crazy side, so I’ve mostly been over here relaxing and wasting time with TS3.  Apologies.  I still love my BS, but it takes a bit more energy out of me.  ;)

Jared immediately spun up the wish to get engaged to Sage, so I would definitely say he’s in it to win it, which amuses me.  Shelly won’t be pleased, I’m sure.

BS turns two here in the next week or so.  I’m planning something for that.  Hopefully it’ll make up for the update gaps!

ETA — I forgot to add, but I’m sure you’ve all noticed (but were nice enough not to mention) that this entry should come after Anderson, not before.  The deal is, I realized this AFTER I’d written out the entry.  I have pictures and everything for Anderson update, but in my silly-mindedness… went for Saunders first, sigh.  Anderson update is forthcoming, I promise.  You’ll never know it was backwards… unless you, you know, browse the archives, LOL!  ;)

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